Friday, January 31, 2014

Breaks never happen do they?

I've decided, that when the Lord is testing and trying you, there are no breaks. No moments of pause in the torrential rain pour, no stemming the tide that is coming in, or boats of relief in the flood. If it all came at once, making my life suck for a few weeks then it is was over, I think I could deal with this. But when it's one thing after another, one fire put out then another crops up, I have a really hard time dealing. I am trying to feel better, remind myself of the many wonderful things that I have, the amazing husband I have, the wonderful child, an apartment that we like, school and loving friends. I try to count my blessings, things that the world can't take away from me. But my gosh, it's hard to have a cheerful out look when you feel like something else is just waiting around the corner to give you heartache and grief.

Friday, January 3, 2014

I have Diastisis Recti, but it's okay.

When my son was born, it was one of the best days of my life. It also changed my life forever, and my body. While my sweet little boy was growing strong inside my womb, he was also stretching out my skin, and splitting my abdominal muscles. With each little kick and twist, my abdomen was being pulled apart. Surprising how it didn't hurt, at all. After he was born I thought it would only take a few months to get by abs back into some semblance of shape. But it's now been 16 months since I gave birth but my stomach still is stretched and split.

So what do I do?

I've been afraid to try, afraid that it won't work. That this program or exercise won't really do anything. So why try?

But as I was holding my sweet little one, I realized how much I love him. And how much what my 'mummy tummy' looks like doesn't matter.

I love my son. I would give everything for him, even my voice (and coming from a vocal performance student, that's kind of huge), to make him happy. His is the light of my life, gives me hope with every day and every giggle. He is the reason that I get up in the morning (literally because he wakes me up.) He has changed everything in my life, and I bless him everyday for it.

So I have Diastisis Recti, and that's okay.