Steal Me . . . but don't take me to far!

My voice teacher assigned a new song for me from an opera called 'The Old Maid and the Thief'. Its about a transient man who is looking for food and money. And he is HOT! So the maid and the mistress decided to take him in and help him out. The mistress begins to steal money to help him, from the church and from friends, to entice him to stay. He does, but the maid is very jealous and tells him that people are beginning to suspect him of being the thief. The end of the opera ends with the man leaving with the maid, leaving the mistress alone.

At first I wasn't sure I would like the song. My voice teacher, Barry Bounouse, played it for me in our lesson and I was kind of hesitant to it. But I've been working on it and fallen completely in love. The music is very contemporary, so there are a lot of dissonant cords and strange resolutions. The video below is a pretty good redition of the piece.

The song is from the maid's view and she's singing about how the man won't make any moves to her. She goes through what the mistress has been doing to keep him there and he still makes no advances. It continues with her wishing he would steal her heart, her lips, her life and take it before death steals her life. Very nice.

Thoughtlessness

I understand that some people might be into their own thing. They might be so wrapped up in their own lives, they don't think about anything but themselves. But come on! How thoughtless can you be? It doesn't matter if your own life is so exciting, so wonderful, so thrilling. You need to be aware of others and their feelings. Don't plan things if its obvious you haven't invited others that are connected to you. Don't go out and do something and not invite someone that has been close to you for a long time.

It pisses me off.

Why isn't there JUNK when I want IT!

So here is my question, when you are on a diet, is it a good thing to get rid of all the food in your house that isn't approved on the diet? Many say yes. Today I say

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Abso-frickin-lutly not! I had a crap day. A bigger then crap day and I wanted to do the one thing that I have been trained to do when I am stressed out. EAT. But because there wasn't anything in the house I could eat, I had to munch on a mango, half a watermelon and a bean lettuce wrap.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!

Those aren't binging foods. Those are health foods. Thats like me going into a gluten free restaurant and asking for wheat bread. Lame!

To end the day, I was cramping (being a woman is great!), craving and cursing the fact that I was on this stupid diet that won't let me make the Red Velvet cake mix that was sitting on kitchen counter.

10 lbs and counting!!!

I couldn't wait any more, I wanted to share my great news. As of Friday morning I have lost . . . .

9.6 lbs!!

YEAH ME! I haven't lost more then a few lbs over the last year and in just 4 days I lost almost 10 lbs. Can you believe it? I can't believe it. I was totally shocked when I saw the number on the scale. 206.6 lbs. So I started at 216.2 and now I'm 206.6.

But to be completely 1oo% honest, I did cheat at my sisters b-day party so I gained a few pounds. That was to be expected. I knew it would happen. But I've eaten pretty perfect, so I'm not worried. Tomorrow I'll be down even farther. I'm pretty psyched about it.

The food thing has been surprisingly easy. As long as I don't let myself get hungry, I'm able to keep the cravings down and the healthy food is getting better and better to the taste. We've been looking for new things to try and we're making some really great meals if I do say so myself. I made this really great broth soup that was cabbage and chickpeas, lots of spices and carrots etc. It looked a bit like chicken noodle soup, but tasted like a veggie broth soup. I really liked it and so did Jae, my sister. But Weston was kind of iffie. This has been harder then expected for him. I'm a bit surprised really. He is normally much better then I am at diets we try.

So tomorrow is Sunday, so I do a weight comparison and what not. I'm excited! Yeah team me!

Day 2 and a half!

Post that was supposed to be posted on Tuesday. I’m lame!


There are days where the only thing that is getting you through is the mantra “Just one more day, then the week is done, just one more day.” I’m feeling that way today. I’m not sure what it is, but I feel awful and I want to go to bed and sleep. It’s very frustrating because being an adult means you can’t just up and leave whenever you want to.

Yesterday Weston and I went to the restaurant called Soupilatious and Sweet Tomatoes. It’s a salad bar buffett that is perfect for the diet we’re on. All you can eat salad and vegetarian soups. LOVES! It was great because I got to fill up completely, but I wasn’t eating anything that wasn’t on our diet. (Lets not talk about the few bites of creamy tomato or creamy potato soup I had, that didn’t happen). Weston had a craptastic day and mine wasn’t much better, so when we got home from school and work, I said, “Off we get to Sweet Tomates!” Like how that almost, sort off rhymed?

The day was okay when it came to food.

Breakfast:
Orange
Grapes
Banana
Spinach (First time for the spinach!)

Lunch:
Salad
I don’t remember what was in it, but I do remember it was really good!

Day 1 of the Eat to Live cleanse

Day 1

Current weight 216.2

6:30am

Orange

Banana

Grapes

(Shake)

9:00am through 11:00am

Orange

Banana

Carrots

11:30am

Salad

Romaine lettace

Cucumber

tomatoes

Red Peppers

1:30pm

Salad

Same

Apple

And then I was out of food! I cannot tell you how hungry I was by 3:30pm. I called Weston and told him that I might need him to bring me some food because my stomach was going to eat itself! Fruits and veggies go through me really fast. Its like I don't even realize that they have come and gone and I'm hungry again!

So here is the format for my documentation of my Eat to Live journey. I'm going to write every day and let you guys know what's been happening throughout the day. If I was able to eat everything I was supposed to. If I was ready to kill someone. If I was ready to kill myself . . . you know, that sort of thing.

Each week I'm going to update my weight. That way, I am held accountable to you guys for my weight loss and my strictness of my diet.

So, day one is now down. I'll update tomorrow.

LOVES!

Hayley

Veneers and Lorazepan . . . an ode to crazy!!

Before

After

Monday was the Veneer Day! Here are the before and after pictures for my teeth. Now I know my picture of my before looks much better because of the fact that my make-up and hair are done, just ignore that. Just focus on my teeth.

It started Sunday night. I was given a prescription for Lorazepan. For those of you that don’t know what Lorazepan is, it is a sedative that works really really well! I took one Sunday night, on Monday morning and hour before the appointment and then 2 at 1:00pm during the appointment. Needless to say, I was totally out of it.

I don’t remember much of the appointment, only that the shots he gave me hurt really bad. More then normal. Weston thinks it’s because the Lorazepan blocked my ability to mentally cope with the shots. Also, he said one of them bled a lot. So that could have something to do with it. I’ve had so many shots lately though, that I think I’m getting good at taking them. Or . . . maybe not J.

Weston came to get me once the appointment was done. I was so out of it, I don’t remember him coming in our coming to get me. I remember being in the car and getting food. Then I remember waking up in my bed and going to get food around seven that night and then falling back asleep until the next morning. I woke up okay on Tuesday, but I was kind of shaky on my legs. I drove to work, looking back, that was probably not a good idea because only three hours later, Weston was coming to get me because I was so loopy.

Dr. Child gave me a few more mouth washes to use because I have a tendency toward canker sores. They seem to be working, keep your fingers crossed! So now I have temporary veneers in my mouth. I’m going to be getting custom veneers in about 2 weeks, then in about a month and a half I get the real ones. YEAH!!!!!